Did you ask the why me question ever?
Absolutely.
All the time.
There are other people that have had this gift and there are a lot of people that get given the gift every so many years.
So the problem is, is that it's making it through it and not leaving here early is the problem.
Like the struggle is so rough because it's a voice you hear all the time.
It's on the outside of the body.
So that means that you're not channeling it.
you're not um you're not using intuition you're not doing any of that it's a voice you hear on
the outside of the body that's speaking to you like someone's with you you know whenever they're
walking around with you it's like a friend talking to you so what happens is it makes it so difficult
to function like a normal person through the teenage years that people just drop off like
flies that get the gift it's it's it's basically the strongest survives i'm not saying i'm the
strongest by any means but i survived it somehow without basically you know uh ending my life
because that's how difficult it is.
So a group of people get given the gift.
We see who survives in that century.
We see who survives.
That's what I'm told by spirit.
Do I feel special because I survived?
I don't know how I made it.
I don't know how.
I mean, I had the times where I was like,
you know what, this is torture and I'm done here.
And all through the early years.
And then I've pushed through, I've shoved through.
And giving people information for their health 30 years ago, 35 years ago, with information that we know now was the hardest part because spirit knows about the information no matter what the timing is.
So telling people to do this and this and this for their diet, and this is what they need,
when it was foreign 35 years ago, so foreign that even just getting off of wheat or wheat
gluten was so foreign, nevermind anything else more complicated than that.
That's what made it even harder.
It was a constant, like, I got to pace myself.
I have to be cautious to what I release.
I got to help people as much as I can.
And so it's been just torture.
But it's a gift.
I've had to work with it.
It's not a curse like I thought it was originally.
And I've been bended at it ever since.
And did you get a satisfactory answer to why me?
Yeah, no.
The answer was, it's given to people who are thought or believed to have the strength to ride out the part where you leave this place and you end your life.
So it's given to people that are thought to be maybe the ones that can sustain this and make it as long as they can.
Um, and, and, and that's, and so it was just, it's a luck of the draw.
Wow.
How interesting.
